We are still waiting on the neurologist to contact us about Joel. STILL!! I contact them daily now and all I hear is out of the office, I'm emailing the doctor right now, and they are reviewing the chart. Really? I had one friend who really put it in perspective though and said at least he isn't a first priority. If he was, it would be a bad situation. We are truly just looking for answers. How true and I pray so much for the first priority patients in the office and their moms and dads. But, they still need to call right!!
I took my final test for my provisional license in real estate last week!! I passed!!! What a huge blessing. I struggle with dyslexia and it really got to me during the test. It doesn't bother me in my everyday anymore so much now that I have learned to work with it but when I get stressed or nervous it haunts me. Once I finally gave the test to God everything became clear and I realized I knew what they were asking!! I had no clue before and was literally crying and mad at myself!! God is so good. What a peace that comes with having Him in my life!!
I am now looking at jobs! The whole thing is scary and exciting to me. I haven't ever really been a "career" woman. I haven't worked in years. My job is my kids and my family is my life! I chose real estate because of the flexibility but I am on call 24/7 also. I have two more companies to interview with and then we will just pray all weekend!! I am so excited for this journey to begin. I am so thankful that God has opened doors and shut them so far as far as what has been best for our family. We love the lady who loves on our little Joel each day I have school or an interview and when I will be working. I love that Carpender loves his extra time with Gracie and Gracie is having a blast with Carpender for now! We will see how long that lasts. I am thankful that Randy's job gives him the time home to be with all the kids most of the time so I don't have to depend on Gracie too much. God is truly blessing our family and I am so very thankful for that!! As soon as I know where I will be I can't wait to share!
So as this week progressed, Joel, my five month old kept shaking his head no to me. It started happening more and more so. Then it seemed something was "off" with the behavior. I sent a video to some friends who some thought I should get him to the doctor quick and some though ehh, normal. I was sitting on the fence. Seeing how the weekend would go. Then Thursday night after he was asleep he shook his head back and forth I knew something wasn't right. Friday morning I called our awesome doctor and made the first available. Took him in and showed the video. I thought my son was being cute at first but he is having little seizures. Please mommies, if your babies are doing anything questionable ask questions!!! So thankful I went with my mommy instinct!!!!
I will never be the mom who has her cute little monogrammed picnic folding chair out at the front of the car line eating her lunch reading a book or chatting with the other early birds moms and grandmoms. I truly love the early bird club they have going on there even if it is nuts and they seem to have no life what so ever. It is their life. It is what these ladies do. They are the first in line. They visit, they chat, they catch up on reading, they eat, and they just enjoy the quiet moments while a younger sibling may be sleeping or quietly entertaining themselves in the backseat. As moms we all try to read, chat with friends, visit with other adults, enjoy quiet moments. We just don't all do it in the front of a car line. I certainly will never be organized enough to get to the front of the car line to have "me" time since Hanni has been in public school for only a week in a half now and I think I have been almost the last parent picking up twice now!! Fortunately, she gets me. Kudos to those front liners though and enjoy your "me" time! I'll just squeeze it in during my escape to the grocery store or visiting my neighbor a couple evenings a week. Whatever you do moms, get some "me" time for you and your kids!!
Several pages in our family book have turned in this past year. We have welcomed sweet Joel to the world. My mom has passed on. Maryjo is no longer living with us. I am going back to work. Hanni started back to public school. Things are changing fast. Amazingly they are changing for the good finally though!! Praise God for his constant hand over our lives even when things look rough!!